Smile:) :) :) :) :) Have a nice day!!!

2011-11-22T20:15:00.000+08:00

I hate you so much idiot. You've changed so much.

2011-08-21T20:42:00.000+08:00

Moved to tumblr. Text me or fb pm me if you want the address(:

2011-08-21T00:59:00.002+08:00

I guess I will be posting less on blogger already. I shall use tumblr and see how it goes. I'm going to move on in life.

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

2011-08-20T23:27:00.000+08:00

I.W.N.W.A.Y

2011-08-20T10:09:00.002+08:00

Horrible night. I'm just glad it's over. It's time to stand up again and move on with life.

2011-08-19T23:13:00.001+08:00

I'm in for a real long night..

2011-08-19T21:17:00.002+08:00

I think I'm afraid of being happy because everytime when I'm happy, something bad happens. Life doesn't hurt until I realise how much things have changed, who I've lost along the way and how much of it was my fault. I really don't know if I am better or I'm just getting used to pain. It's painful to smile when I know deep inside, something's wrong. Behind every smile is something you will never understand. I still got to keep that smile alive.

2011-08-19T19:33:00.002+08:00

I really hate to do all this and suffer but I know it's for my own good. One day, I'll emerge stronger.

2011-08-19T19:25:00.003+08:00

I've succeeded in psycho-ing myself to be happy for the past few days even though I'm sad. Sometimes, wearing a mask works as it makes u forget all your temporial problems and move on with life. I'll probably keep this mask on for awhile more.

It's been a draining week once again. Prelims are here next week and I really wanna work very hard for gp this few days. I'm not gonna give up.

2011-08-16T18:38:00.001+08:00

I will learn how to psycho myself to be happy. My will power's got to be strong. I know everything happens for a reason and someday, I will eventually know that everything falls into place. I am happy I am happy I am happy!(:

2011-08-15T21:19:00.000+08:00

Maybe you just didn't care huh. Enough of all the lies. I gotta stay positive.

2011-08-15T20:15:00.002+08:00

It's time I wake up to reality. I should start slapping myself everytime I think foolishly. I'm really so stupid. Things look so good on the outside but inside, I knew there was something more. I really hate myself. I shouldn't be doing all this. It's not worth it. It's time to wake up. Maybe my worse thing I've dreaded has started to occur. I just want my JC life to end asap but yet, I don't want to take my A levels. Mixed feelings.

On a brighter side, I've started doing some of my econs work and I hope I can keep out this studying mode. I've little self discipline so it's gonna be real tough. I've gone thru so much this year but yet, I can't overcome my restlessness and study. It sucks man. Few more days to prelim, I just hope I'm on the right track. There's probably no chance for me to look back now. And I hope I'm sad/angry everytime I need to do work, I realised I could complete so much more. Very much a perfect day to do work tonight.

Before I end off, one message to you: If you continue toying with me, I swear I will crush you. YPWKWYA

Have you forgotten how you would make me feel when you drag my spirit down, but thank you for the pain, it made me raise my game.

2011-08-14T22:20:00.001+08:00

Fuck you for spoiling my day.

2011-08-14T13:21:00.002+08:00

My first tuition lesson of my life went quite smoothly. Abit not used to the style but I hope I will adapt asap. I think being a jc tutor can earn big bucks man. Everything's going well so far, let's just hope everything will be okay:/

2011-08-13T18:47:00.002+08:00

There's alot of work for me to do today:/ I've got to do GP, physics, econs and some other stuff which I have forgot. Went for buffet in the afternoon and I feel so bloated now. I want to run but I don't think I have much time to do that tonight. Tomorrow's going to be an eventful day I hope. Having econs tuition in the morning, somehow I'm dreading it, it's so weird and thinking of it makes me sian:/ Going back to my sec sch in the afternoon to play ball in our renovated school field. Can't wait for that.

Let's just hope tonight will be a good night and I'll be spared of sorrow and pain.

2011-08-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

I am so tempted to press the call button

2011-08-12T23:31:00.001+08:00

I must learn to survive independently. I cannot pull others down with me. I have to fight on alone in this journey and conquer the pain. Giving up is never an option.

2011-08-12T22:57:00.001+08:00

Fuck, I can't be sad.

2011-08-12T19:14:00.000+08:00

I really don't know what to do

2011-08-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna go school tomorrowwwwwwwwwwwwww. I am so sad):

2011-08-10T20:57:00.000+08:00

Why can't I take the easy way out and die?

2011-08-10T20:53:00.002+08:00

I guess I wasn't born to make people happy. Not a good day for me today. The brightest thing was probably managing to read almost all my GP packages. Yes I know, fml. Luckily I didn't go home and went to school instead, if not I wouldn't have managed to complete my GP by friday. I can't wait for today to end. Everything just not right for me. Should have known from the start. Stupid senses.

2011-08-09T22:39:00.000+08:00

Love isn't complicated, people are.

2011-08-09T00:56:00.001+08:00

I just wanna sleep and forget everything but sadly I can't. I really need someone to talk to now fuckkkkk. Maybe I should go to the beach and talk to the waves, sand and rocks.

2011-08-08T22:13:00.001+08:00

There comes to a point where I'm sick and tired of everything. I look back and ask, was everything worth it? Scarred and wounded.

2011-08-07T12:01:00.001+08:00

I don't want to do any homework.... I just want to relax but I can't. There's still lotsa GP for me to do and I really want to procrastinate. The weather is so nice to sleep in sigh.

2011-08-05T19:24:00.002+08:00

When it gets cold and it feels like the end,
There's no place to go, you know I won't give in
No, I won't give in

2011-08-04T20:27:00.001+08:00

I don't know what to do:/ It's no fun man. I've had enough already.

2011-08-02T19:12:00.003+08:00

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

2011-08-02T18:10:00.001+08:00

Home alone without my parents for 4days. I don't know if that's a good thing or not:/ I'm feeling so damn lethargic now. I'm in a horrible mood now man:/

2011-07-31T21:48:00.003+08:00

It's been such a long day for me todayyyyyy. I'm very happy(: I realised cheering people up is my best way of cheering myself up. I just bought a green wallet/pouch. Now my coins won't drop out anymore. The past two days I have been using a plastic bag to store my coins. Sounds stupid but that was what I actually did.

Yesterday was a great day too. Went to scape for the second time and I saw 98.7fm radio station. A pity the muttons weren't there:/ I realised I haven't been hearing radio ever since the muttons were no longer muttons to midnight. Coincidentally, my earpiece spoilt at that time so I was fated not to hear other DJ's haha. The most funny thing of the night was my friend mixing up 313 and ion. Haha totally hilarious and I shan't name him/her/them for face sake haha. It was very windy there too and I wanna go back there soon!

What a long and wonderful day it has been. It's good to be happy after so long. New wallet tomorrow! And it's green so my blog words shall be green haha.

2011-07-29T23:24:00.001+08:00

I've gone past my breaking point. I didn't realise it.

2011-07-27T19:42:00.002+08:00

I went for NS checkup today. The test was freaking long especially the IQ test part. It was really mentally torturing and I screwed up the last part:/ Hope it doesn't affect my posting. I can still see my vein from my injection and the needle which poked through the vein haha. I can't imagine if I had to take a blood test haha. Anyway, got posted to PES A even though I got asthma. That is quite weird though. My parents don't want me to go commando though.

Talking about that, I made a wrong decision yesterday. I really did and I know my life will take a turn for the worse. Sleepless nights man fuck:/ I just hope everything will be fine.

2011-07-26T16:26:00.000+08:00

I've done so much already, I never expected anything in return. I just hope for happiness.

2011-07-26T16:08:00.002+08:00

I dun really want to think anymore. I'm tired already. I can't wait for this week to end again. I've got NS checkup tomorrow which means I will be ponning school! Don't know if that's a good thing or not but I hope it will be a fun day! There's soccer match to watch the next day so it's going to be quite fun! I gotta start doing work. There's hell lot of GP to do man:/ Why can't we have a longer break before prelims sigh:/

INGTPUTBPOG

2011-07-23T23:12:00.001+08:00

I guess trust must be earned:/ I'm probably not trustable. Fuck my life. ): It's been a long and tiring day for me already.

2011-07-21T18:58:00.002+08:00

On a brighter side, I shouldn't let that affect me. Today was quite a great day, except the fact that I realise how much I hate you. Passed napfa test on the first try and was quite pleased. I've learned so much through this whole journey. Results come to those who work for it. Success never comes at a easy cost. I'm so happy I managed to clear pull-ups considering I did zero in march. Hopefully, I can channel this passion into my studies:/

My legs are aching like hell now though. Played soccer with classmates after school and it was great fun(: I should just care about those who care about me. No more wasting of time in my short jc life. For now, I wanna chillllllll. I musn't get pissed. Thanks alot for those who encouraged me and ran with me, appreciate it.

2011-07-21T18:57:00.002+08:00

Everyday, my hate for you increase exponentially. You screw up my life. I've got to control myself if not I might just stab you.

2011-07-20T18:34:00.001+08:00

My senses were right thankfully. It was a better day today. I'm happy(: But it might not be so happy in a few hours time:/

2011-07-19T23:06:00.001+08:00

I swear you should just die. Fuck you. I hate you bitch. And now, I want to run away again fuck _l_ Why can't I die.

2011-07-19T22:20:00.001+08:00

My senses were never wrong. Once again. Fuck. I thought it was going to be a good day until what I sensed yesterday happened. Nevermind, for now everything's fucked up but my senses tell me tomorrow will be a good day. I gotta believe them, they've never let me down.

2011-07-19T20:41:00.000+08:00

F.U.B.A.R. Enough said.

2011-07-18T22:44:00.002+08:00

I have done so much but is it really worth it? I'm just fucking stupid and delusional. Useless piece of shit.

2011-07-18T19:57:00.001+08:00

Fuck this is killing me. I don't want to go school anymore please. I'm had enough. Calls of retaining and dropping out are ringing louder in my ears. Fuck it.

2011-07-17T15:45:00.001+08:00

It's been the most torturous day of my life and I'm glad it's over. I have one more day to recover and get back up on my feet. Nothing can be worse already, I'm gonna start on my journey to regain myself.

2011-07-14T20:58:00.002+08:00

I know there's always people who put me down in life so I'm just gonna ignore all those. I'm just going to care for those I love and for those who put me down, too bad for you. I will not be affected. I hate you. I really do. But I will forget about it. I should start caring for those who deserve it.

2011-07-13T23:13:00.000+08:00

I'm tired. I've tried all options already. It's so painful. I don't like this.

2011-07-13T19:37:00.001+08:00

I'm so useless

2011-07-13T18:17:00.004+08:00

I'm so bored of school. Everyday, it's always the same thing. I'm getting closer and closer to A levels and that means the school is pushing us like crazy now man. Time flies so fast. Seriously fast. Not a long while ago, I was enjoying J1 life. Now, I'm thrown into the cauldron where I'm slowly being boiled. It's a fight to the finish. I guess I can't give up halfway.

Got back physics exam today, and that means my rank points has been completed. I'm pretty sure econs won't contribute a single part (as usual) barring a miracle. I do believe in miracles though but this is quite impossible. I'm happy that I cleared BT's given that I've been through so much during the holidays. I'm sure my parents are not happy with my results but I think I've done pretty well in my circumstances.

Can't wait for friday. It's college day and after that I hope can go out and lepak. Hopefully a stayover but I doubt many people will go sigh. Let's just hope friday will be fun man. For now, it's time to rest awhile before I might try doing some work!

P.s: DBSBCUO

2011-07-12T21:56:00.001+08:00

Why should I live already? I don't see a reason behind it. BISPBYWNU. I've grown so sick and tired for vulgarities already. It can't allow me to express my true feelings and my pain. Maybe I shouldn't cut myself by picking up pieces of glass.

2011-07-11T23:38:00.000+08:00

Endure the pain. Everything will be ok.

2011-07-11T23:28:00.002+08:00

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK. I want to kill you I swear. IHBSYFB.

2011-07-10T19:26:00.001+08:00

2011-07-10T18:33:00.001+08:00

I hate school. I don't wanna go school tomorrow. SSJGAFI.

2011-07-10T16:50:00.002+08:00

I want a jacuzzi in my house like this. Everyday after school or work, I can come here and relax in it! When I grow up, I wanna design my house. The main theme will be water, I might even turn my house into a waterhouse. The bedroom will be like an aquarium, the kitchen will be beside a small pond where I can catch fishes from the pond and cook it. My study room will be beside a waterfall and needless to say, my toilet will also have lots of water! Maybe I should take up some water design course in university.

On a side note, I really feel damn sticky now. It's damn freaking humid man. There's school tomorrow already and it means its back to study time. Time passes too quick man. Let's just hope the next week of school will be fun.

Mood: Sad but I'm going to tell myself I'm happy(:

2011-07-10T14:01:00.002+08:00

I'm having a bad headache now:/ must be the stupid weather. It's freaking hot it's killing me man. I want a jacuzzi right now.

2011-07-09T22:53:00.002+08:00

Nothing's going right for me now fuck. I wanna run away.

2011-07-09T21:55:00.002+08:00

My leg still hurts:/ I think if it doesn't heal by monday I will need to go see doctor. Hope everything's fine man. I'm so thankful I didn't break my leg. Now I know how soccer players feel whenever they break their leg. I didn't even break it but it was so painful already, can't imagine what if it really breaks.

Maybe it's a sign for me to stay at home and recuperate but I don't want... I really wanna goooo oooouuuutttttt. I have no plans though so I shall just stay at home. I want to sleepover! Maybe I shall go to the park tonight!

2011-07-09T20:13:00.002+08:00

I shall be good and copy my notes for complex numbers. I realised how hard that topic was when I just flipped through the notes oh my. Lucky almost all the syllabus are done if not I think I will just die when it comes to A levels. I only have almost 100 days left to A levels. Come to think of it, it's ironic wanting A levels to end quickly but yet not wanting it to start. I guess in order to enjoy, we must suffer first. That's the way of life.

Life after exams has been great. Get to catch up on sleep and enjoy! Buffet today at ECP was great! I'm damn full now and I can't run. I must run tomorrow. I want to get to relax more but sadly, there's only one more day left to enjoy. There's school on monday and we're gonna get it from all the teachers. Hopefully our results don't suck that badly:/

I must be focused on not be distracted. I will tide through this.

Mood: Restless :l

2011-07-09T10:03:00.002+08:00

I'm going to eat buffet today! Finally get to slowly relax and enjoy. But, that means I need to exercise more after that. My leg is injured though so I'm not sure how I'm gonna exercise. Oh well, I should just focus on eating to my heart's content and not worry so much about now!

Mood: Sad:(

2011-07-08T21:58:00.001+08:00

Birch wants to hide in its nest now. It doesn't want to come out. It's been injured so badly by the other animals in the jungle. Argh _l_

2011-07-08T20:45:00.002+08:00

My leg is so fucking pain. I hope it won't affect my training for napfa test:/ I want a 1 week holiday. I really need a break man. I want go ouuuttttttttt. Stupid injury.

2011-07-08T19:44:00.002+08:00

Exams are ovvvveeerrrrrr. Finallllllyyyyyy. Omg, I couldn't wait for it to be over. Worse period of my life and I have more or less cleared it, glad I made it.

Physics MCQ was the last paper. Went to ECP to play futsal after that with soccer boys and some other people. It nearly turn into a horrible day when I got injured. I got kick twice in the shin and for the first time, I really thought my leg broke. I didn't even dare to look at my leg because it was so fucking pain. I really thought my bone break but thankfully it didn't. Phew. But it's still freaking pain now I wanna scream and yell. I can't even walk properly now fml. Bittersweet day I would say.

I'm now at home and it's time to lepakkkkkkk

2011-07-07T19:41:00.002+08:00

Birch was a small hummingbird. It hums during occasional times and it produced soothing melody. However, Birch was often hated by the other creatures of the jungle. They had been planning to silence Birch as they hated the melody it hummed. One day, a fire was about to start in the forest. Only Birch saw that the fire was coming so it started to hum to warn its other friends to leave the forest. Instead, its friends were even more frustrated and injured Birch. They mocked him and told it that it was noisy and an irritant. Little did they know, Birch was signalling danger. When the fire really came and burn down the other animals habitat, the animals were furious with Birch. Some even questioned why Birch did not warn them in advance since it saw what was coming. As Birch was injured, it could only suffer in silence.

I'm fucking tired already. I really don't know what should I do. Everything I do, it seems like a mistake. Maybe my life was a mistake. I do admit I do things complicatedly sometimes but it's always for a reason and no one can see it. It's like what the fuck la. I'm doing what I'm doing for a good purpose. I may be wrong but at least I know I am easing the tension of the situation.

I really can't wait for exams to be over. In around 12 hours time, I will have freedom and somehow it marks a significant end for me. I've fought the battle well, I need a rest.

Maybe Birch should just be killed or send to another forest.

2011-07-07T00:14:00.000+08:00

Number 28(:

2011-07-06T23:12:00.002+08:00

My phone is going to spoil. I want a new phone. I wished I had unlimited supply of money. Whenever I want anything, I can just take out the money to buy. I want htc cha cha. *poofs* It appears. How I wish that would happen. But then again, I think if I had unlimited supply of money, I would be discontented and want even more. So I shall just bear with my lousy phone and not be greedy:/
My dream phone:X It's called dream for a reason sigh haha.

2011-07-06T12:43:00.002+08:00

U heartless creatures. _l_

I feel happy today because today's paper was quite easy. If only that thing didn't spoil my day. I must be happy i must be happy.

2011-07-05T22:29:00.001+08:00

Each time I face my fear, I gain strength and confidence. I'm not gonna give up just yet.

2011-07-05T16:39:00.002+08:00

Physics exam was manageable today. At least it wasn't as hopeless as friday's one. I think today's paper cheered me up but now, I'm in no mood to study. I really hate statistics. But I still gotta learn it no matter how much I hate it.

3 more days to the end. Can't wait, can't wait, can't wait. Hang in there jon!

2011-07-04T00:15:00.002+08:00

Perhaps I shouldn't be existing on earth. I should just fucking disappear. I don't know why am i suffering for all this. It's eating into me and killing me. I don't know what to do.

2011-07-03T21:57:00.002+08:00

5 more days:/ I really don't wanna take physics on tuesday. I have no mood to study. I'm so demoralised after friday's paper. I really want to retain. It's a matter now of whether I dare to retain. I really don't want to think about all this. I just can't wait for 8th july and I can finally relax a little. I'm sure july's gonna be a great month. I can't wait for the 2nd half of july but yet I don't want it to come. It signals that I'm closer to a levels, and I gotta make another decision. I feel like I'm going to shred into pieces anytime soon. It's so hard being me.

IJHEWBO

2011-07-03T20:37:00.002+08:00

I don't know how to help you man. You are in such a deep mess. You are giving me a real hard time. I want to escape from this but I know I can't. I just can't sit here and watch what happens. Argh:/ Some people don't change, do they?

2011-07-03T14:41:00.002+08:00

I'm so frustrated. I hate people who lie to me especially when I trusted them so much. I've learned my lesson though and to trust those I should trust and not trust those that I shouldn't trust. It's been a big wake up call. I will find a way to settle this problem. Turmoil:/

2011-07-01T22:51:00.001+08:00

I wonder what I did wrong:/ why must all this happen? I don't know who to trust..

2011-07-01T22:34:00.003+08:00

1 more week. Press on. I think I can't die so I might as well just continue living although it sucks. I really can't wait for a's to be over. I wanna run away and go work. I'm so sick and tired of life at home and all the shit. I really want all this to end. I wished I had a refresh button for life.

2011-06-30T19:53:00.001+08:00

I'm so drained. Exams are giving me a headache but I can't escape from reality even though how much I want to. One more day to hang in there before I get a short break. Don't give up.. sigh

2011-06-27T18:52:00.004+08:00

Sian. I'm stuck in a dilemma now. I don't know what to do. I feel so guilty and sad:( Argh

Chemistry paper was manageable. I don't know whether I will pass or not but at least I know I've studied hard for it and I'm happy with that. Let's just hope for the best tomorrow.

Arghhhhhh...

2011-06-25T21:38:00.002+08:00

1 more day to Block Test 2. Oh well, I'm almost screwed already. I shall attempt to finish the BT2 revision package by tomorrow:/ At least it will give me some comfort and assurance taking the exams on monday. I really really hope the exams will be easy but that's wishful thinking on my part sigh. I've worked quite hard this exams but because of so many problems cropping up during this holiday, I've certainly been affected. I hope I can stand up on my feet and do better for prelims. On a bright side, I'm starting to like chem. It's too late though. I'm not giving up still, there's prelims!

2011-06-24T23:24:00.002+08:00

Horrible mood:/ I wanna run away

2011-06-24T21:25:00.001+08:00

Studying ain't fun man:/ I hate to study argh. I wanna play soccer all my life. Why can't I..

2011-06-24T14:39:00.002+08:00

Life is like flying a single seat airplane. From the time you take off to the time you land, the journey is only for one person. Two people can fly a plane together but their final destinations will be different so the plane might crash and end in a fiery state.

2011-06-24T12:42:00.001+08:00

God, please help me. It's so hard being me. ): I'm totally exhausted already.

2011-06-24T00:28:00.001+08:00

3days more:/ I don't want exams to start helppppp. My stomach's damn pain now fml.

2011-06-23T21:54:00.002+08:00

Home alone no more:( I've been slightly happier for the past 3 days. Not anymore now sigh. Freedom gone. I've to face reality.

T.F.E.B

2011-06-22T23:42:00.000+08:00

Fuck la. What the shit.

2011-06-22T22:42:00.002+08:00

): ): ): ): ):

Why why why why why. I got so many questions in my head now argh:/ I'm trapped so intricately I don't know how to get out of this web. I really don't want to bother about all this but I can't. Sometimes I wonder whether it pays to be nice and help others.

It's been my most productive day of the holiday so far but I'm far behind schedule. I'm going to resign to fate but just continue studying. It's been the worst holidays of my life. I never felt so moodless before. I've lost everything. I need to find my old self back.

You must be strong now. You must never give up. And when people make you cry and you are afraid of the dark, don't forget the light is always there.

2011-06-22T19:27:00.001+08:00

What the fuck man. Fuck my life seriously.

2011-06-21T23:50:00.002+08:00

I'm so dead for BT2. I just can't concentrate at home. It's fucking annoying. Either I'm restless, sad, sick or just plain lazy. Why the hell do I have such a bad attitude. I keep procrastinating man. I swear I'm the king of procrastination. I planned so many timetables but I always fail. I'm a failure man. I just wanna quit school/go back to J1.

2011-06-21T23:05:00.001+08:00

I can't quit now. I can't be so responsible. Only cowards quit. I must have the courage to press on no matter how hard the journey is. I can do it. Don't give up. Believe in yourself.

2011-06-20T23:01:00.001+08:00

It's so hard.. :/ Plus I'm having a terrible headache. Help.

2011-06-19T23:58:00.003+08:00

"What if..." is a real difficult question to answer. I always wished I could find out answers to all the "What if's" questions. I really want a time machine. What if I could turn back into time, knowing all my mistakes. What if I didn't do such a stupid thing. What if I could be borned to a new family. What if I could refresh my mind and clear all my memory. What if this, what if that... If only I could find answers to all these questions. All this are tearing me apart. 19 days of sorrow and pain and hurt. Add on to 5 years of pain. How am I going to survive... Maybe torturing myself didn't seem that bad after all. Argh:/

Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I will try again tomorrow.

2011-06-19T17:00:00.003+08:00

Home alone for the next 4 days. Finally. I can't get a break though, gotta study wth. I gotta make a big decision by today, still thinking about it:/ Can't wait for tmr though. But it's one more weeks to exam which is a really really bad thing. I'm just gonna flunk everything. I guess I shall study for prelims and not for bt's. I could really use a wish right now:(

2011-06-18T02:26:00.001+08:00

Regret. Hurt. Torture. Demoralised. Fuck this. I'm living on the edge already man. Tie a knot and hang in there jon.

2011-06-17T23:05:00.001+08:00

I gave up in search for a happy life already. Schooling sucks, I gotta make a big decision soon. I really wanna just enjoy my life and lead a simple life but it's easier said than done. The simpler the things are, the less hurt I will get.

2011-06-17T00:56:00.001+08:00

I came to this earth for a reason. No matter how depressed I am, I still will not give up in searching for that reason to leave. If I really can't find it, I think I should leave already.

2011-06-16T23:25:00.002+08:00

I hope to see a rainbow sometime soon. Somehow, it gives me a sense of comfort and assurance that everything will be fine although it's just a temporial source of comfort. But I really want to see one soon. I need hope and encouragement to press on and not give up. It's been such a tough journey for me.

2011-06-16T01:25:00.003+08:00

Why the fuck must all this happen. Its so cruel:/ I wish life had a refresh button. Then I would not lead such an unfair life. I always thought someday all my problems will end but I was wrong. Instead of having less problems, I'm having more now. I've tried so hard to make everything work. Sacrifices, time, family ties, everything. But what I have in return is a fucked up life. I really wish that my family would stop quarrelling and all this hurt will end someday. For now, I know it's gonna take a real long time. I've never been this hurt before man. Really sad :(

Take care cuton, cheer up(:

2011-06-15T19:39:00.001+08:00

Scapegoat. My life really sucks.

2011-06-12T23:47:00.002+08:00

I really hope I can live in a peaceful family one day. All this is driving me fucking crazy. I wanna jump down. It's only my little brother that's keeping me alive. Fuck all this shit.

2011-06-12T17:06:00.002+08:00

I have done my best. I still screwed up everything. I'm lost and have nowhere to turn to. At a crossroad now and I really don't want to move on. I just want to stay where I am.