15 August 2011
It's time I wake up to reality. I should start slapping myself everytime I think foolishly. I'm really so stupid. Things look so good on the outside but inside, I knew there was something more. I really hate myself. I shouldn't be doing all this. It's not worth it. It's time to wake up. Maybe my worse thing I've dreaded has started to occur. I just want my JC life to end asap but yet, I don't want to take my A levels. Mixed feelings.
On a brighter side, I've started doing some of my econs work and I hope I can keep out this studying mode. I've little self discipline so it's gonna be real tough. I've gone thru so much this year but yet, I can't overcome my restlessness and study. It sucks man. Few more days to prelim, I just hope I'm on the right track. There's probably no chance for me to look back now. And I hope I'm sad/angry everytime I need to do work, I realised I could complete so much more. Very much a perfect day to do work tonight.
Before I end off, one message to you: If you continue toying with me, I swear I will crush you. YPWKWYA
Have you forgotten how you would make me feel when you drag my spirit down, but thank you for the pain, it made me raise my game.